Olivia

I was a toddler who frequently got UTIs. I had iga nephropathy. I got a VCUG as a toddler, I remember every second of it to this day. I remember getting held down, screaming, then I remember pain. I’m 20 now. I didn’t know what I had done to me but all my childhood I felt off. As I got older trying to form relationships it’s gotten worse. There has always been what happened to me in the back of my mind but I couldn’t place what happened. I used to think I’d gotten raped as a child but that I just couldn’t remember it actually happening. I hate being touched. I’m scared to get a pap smear. I never knew why. I never brought it up to my mom. Not until today. I told her I felt like I’d been hurt as a child but it’s fuzzy and I didn’t know why I thought that. She then told me I had a VCUG. After hearing that I did research. Everything clicked. I realized I’m not alone. Thank you.